back then Not lying now. Because now I've been made over. I am nothing
like I used to be. But you would have to physically see my heart to know
that. I spoke And the voice of which caged birds sing, but now I speak as
the India I read of poetry, as the up to date poetry. I just call it like
you see it I'm an instrument of the Almighty. Certain of what I hope for
and certain of the unseen. I could feel it in my bones that he's gonna do
things in my life that I have yet to dream of. As he already has. Because
when I look back to nights when I would cry myself to sleep, I wondered
how anyone could love an insecure little girl as such as me. But what I
know now that I didn't know back then is the answer is always he, the love
, the strength, and the creator of me. I am nothing like I used to be. But
you would have to hold my heart in your hands. To feel the truth of it, to
feel the truth of it, to feel the truth of it because who I was back then
it's not who I am now. Cause you now I've made over. And you can call me
redefine, rewrit, remix, reinvented any words you can think of that means
change because I'm different than I was and the better than I have been,
more mature than I used to be, yet somehow I'm still living my life
beautifully. And who would have thought that I'd be here today after
coming so close to death, my mother didn't know what to say, so I knew I
had to make it up to her in every single way for every single night and
every single day she stayed with me in the hospital with no bed to sleep
on, so in that a little sober scene, she just gave me the keys to life. I
just had to open up the door. So when I came out of the hospital, you
could say I was made over. But better yet, born again, someone so tall and
handsome, get humble to the core and so forth, ethically inclined, you
miraculous supercu, you would think it took 9 months to make me. And it
was could be added up to 8 months, 5 days spent in the hospital back in LA
, plus the 4 weeks and 3 days I had in Chicago over one break. It's
exactly 9 months, so not to sound vame but I'm kinda like the perfect baby.
I know the math sounds strange, but just you can understand me. I wish
you could swim in the depths of the ocean and this is my mind and you can
see the light in the dark in the form of the dolphins and the shark swim
by with they were sing the line. And then when you run out of breath, you
could drown into my thoughts and I can refill your lungs with oxygen and
form love is spoken word. You see, I don't think to any kind of spoken
word veteran. These days since I've made over y'all. I've been everywhere
you've never been. Be I was back then, it's not who I am now.
harmonies, I am free to paint this picture of glorified victory. Like
unfinished symphonies, my broken heart has been repaired by my broken
heart. I am born again under velvet silk and roses, so when the Red Sea is
been that part, I sought out my inner Moses. I found refuge in my music
and the courage to encourage my soul. God has restored me beyond
recognition. I may I've endured many storms of afflictions, rainy nights
between the fixtures, fastest dripping my pain of sorrows hidden behind
the gates, holding promises of tomorrow. Their critical verses will not
keep you worthless. I am not worthless up high on this total pole. I shout
from the rooftops that I have been made over. And watch my testimony. Turn
into gold. Because who I was back then.
Because now I made over into a new man in my mind I built a fortress
unbreakable. The arrows of 1000 sweet lipped vivacious women can no longer
pierce my armor because now I'm stronger. The lustful eyes can no longer
weaken my walls because they are made of cement mixed with strength and
integrity. Built with the hands of God-fearing men, I will no longer fear
my end because who I was back then is not who I am now because now I made
over and over, molded and sculpted into a transformed man who would take a
stand for impoverished children in Haiti, for mothers who just wanna be
there for their babies, for fathers who would give their lives so the
families will no longer have to feel pain from henceforth I will abstain
from having that it's not my problem attitude because I've now reached a
new altitude in my life. Because who I was back then is not who I am now,
because now I am made over into a lover of life, no longer bogging my
heart down with strife. I'm on the pursuit of happiness and though my feet
get weary as I travel down the path of destiny, being reborn has taught me
to always find the best in me. So I keep on carrying my purpose in my
right pocket, letting them know that someday I will take off like a rocket
because who I was back then. It's not who I am now, because now I am made
over.