WEBVTT 00:00:20.138 --> 00:00:22.138 back then Not lying now. Because now I've been made over. I am nothing 00:00:28.670 --> 00:00:34.536 like I used to be. But you would have to physically see my heart to know 00:00:34.569 --> 00:00:42.569 that. I spoke And the voice of which caged birds sing, but now I speak as 00:00:43.408 --> 00:00:49.057 the India I read of poetry, as the up to date poetry. I just call it like 00:00:49.090 --> 00:00:55.057 you see it I'm an instrument of the Almighty. Certain of what I hope for 00:00:55.090 --> 00:01:00.217 and certain of the unseen. I could feel it in my bones that he's gonna do 00:01:00.250 --> 00:01:07.367 things in my life that I have yet to dream of. As he already has. Because 00:01:07.400 --> 00:01:11.885 when I look back to nights when I would cry myself to sleep, I wondered 00:01:11.918 --> 00:01:17.197 how anyone could love an insecure little girl as such as me. But what I 00:01:17.230 --> 00:01:23.385 know now that I didn't know back then is the answer is always he, the love 00:01:23.418 --> 00:01:30.617 , the strength, and the creator of me. I am nothing like I used to be. But 00:01:30.650 --> 00:01:37.055 you would have to hold my heart in your hands. To feel the truth of it, to 00:01:37.088 --> 00:01:44.495 feel the truth of it, to feel the truth of it because who I was back then 00:01:44.528 --> 00:01:49.936 it's not who I am now. Cause you now I've made over. And you can call me 00:01:49.969 --> 00:01:53.415 redefine, rewrit, remix, reinvented any words you can think of that means 00:01:53.448 --> 00:01:57.055 change because I'm different than I was and the better than I have been, 00:01:57.088 --> 00:01:59.775 more mature than I used to be, yet somehow I'm still living my life 00:01:59.808 --> 00:02:02.415 beautifully. And who would have thought that I'd be here today after 00:02:02.448 --> 00:02:05.217 coming so close to death, my mother didn't know what to say, so I knew I 00:02:05.250 --> 00:02:08.096 had to make it up to her in every single way for every single night and 00:02:08.129 --> 00:02:11.136 every single day she stayed with me in the hospital with no bed to sleep 00:02:11.169 --> 00:02:14.767 on, so in that a little sober scene, she just gave me the keys to life. I 00:02:14.800 --> 00:02:18.596 just had to open up the door. So when I came out of the hospital, you 00:02:18.629 --> 00:02:22.036 could say I was made over. But better yet, born again, someone so tall and 00:02:22.069 --> 00:02:24.677 handsome, get humble to the core and so forth, ethically inclined, you 00:02:24.710 --> 00:02:28.036 miraculous supercu, you would think it took 9 months to make me. And it 00:02:28.069 --> 00:02:31.585 was could be added up to 8 months, 5 days spent in the hospital back in LA 00:02:31.618 --> 00:02:36.036 , plus the 4 weeks and 3 days I had in Chicago over one break. It's 00:02:36.069 --> 00:02:40.237 exactly 9 months, so not to sound vame but I'm kinda like the perfect baby. 00:02:40.270 --> 00:02:43.225 I know the math sounds strange, but just you can understand me. I wish 00:02:43.258 --> 00:02:45.626 you could swim in the depths of the ocean and this is my mind and you can 00:02:45.659 --> 00:02:48.346 see the light in the dark in the form of the dolphins and the shark swim 00:02:48.379 --> 00:02:51.566 by with they were sing the line. And then when you run out of breath, you 00:02:51.599 --> 00:02:54.207 could drown into my thoughts and I can refill your lungs with oxygen and 00:02:54.240 --> 00:02:59.606 form love is spoken word. You see, I don't think to any kind of spoken 00:02:59.639 --> 00:03:04.376 word veteran. These days since I've made over y'all. I've been everywhere 00:03:04.409 --> 00:03:12.409 you've never been. Be I was back then, it's not who I am now. 00:04:43.278 --> 00:04:48.187 harmonies, I am free to paint this picture of glorified victory. Like 00:04:48.220 --> 00:04:51.705 unfinished symphonies, my broken heart has been repaired by my broken 00:04:51.738 --> 00:04:56.116 heart. I am born again under velvet silk and roses, so when the Red Sea is 00:04:56.149 --> 00:05:01.705 been that part, I sought out my inner Moses. I found refuge in my music 00:05:01.738 --> 00:05:06.265 and the courage to encourage my soul. God has restored me beyond 00:05:06.298 --> 00:05:12.276 recognition. I may I've endured many storms of afflictions, rainy nights 00:05:12.309 --> 00:05:15.075 between the fixtures, fastest dripping my pain of sorrows hidden behind 00:05:15.108 --> 00:05:19.866 the gates, holding promises of tomorrow. Their critical verses will not 00:05:19.899 --> 00:05:25.187 keep you worthless. I am not worthless up high on this total pole. I shout 00:05:25.220 --> 00:05:30.276 from the rooftops that I have been made over. And watch my testimony. Turn 00:05:30.309 --> 00:05:38.309 into gold. Because who I was back then. 00:06:17.298 --> 00:06:23.336 Because now I made over into a new man in my mind I built a fortress 00:06:23.369 --> 00:06:27.447 unbreakable. The arrows of 1000 sweet lipped vivacious women can no longer 00:06:27.480 --> 00:06:32.877 pierce my armor because now I'm stronger. The lustful eyes can no longer 00:06:32.910 --> 00:06:35.796 weaken my walls because they are made of cement mixed with strength and 00:06:35.829 --> 00:06:40.156 integrity. Built with the hands of God-fearing men, I will no longer fear 00:06:40.189 --> 00:06:45.877 my end because who I was back then is not who I am now because now I made 00:06:45.910 --> 00:06:50.317 over and over, molded and sculpted into a transformed man who would take a 00:06:50.350 --> 00:06:53.836 stand for impoverished children in Haiti, for mothers who just wanna be 00:06:53.869 --> 00:06:57.075 there for their babies, for fathers who would give their lives so the 00:06:57.108 --> 00:07:01.476 families will no longer have to feel pain from henceforth I will abstain 00:07:01.509 --> 00:07:04.877 from having that it's not my problem attitude because I've now reached a 00:07:04.910 --> 00:07:11.276 new altitude in my life. Because who I was back then is not who I am now, 00:07:11.309 --> 00:07:16.515 because now I am made over into a lover of life, no longer bogging my 00:07:16.548 --> 00:07:20.757 heart down with strife. I'm on the pursuit of happiness and though my feet 00:07:20.790 --> 00:07:24.437 get weary as I travel down the path of destiny, being reborn has taught me 00:07:24.470 --> 00:07:28.437 to always find the best in me. So I keep on carrying my purpose in my 00:07:28.470 --> 00:07:32.356 right pocket, letting them know that someday I will take off like a rocket 00:07:32.389 --> 00:07:39.947 because who I was back then. It's not who I am now, because now I am made 00:07:39.980 --> 00:07:41.980 over.