For the divorce. You were kind of summarizing though, which is always
good for us to have a proper ending.
So when I was suggesting that maybe you, you were saying it was really
hard, and I think you were about to say it was really hard, but it was
worth it. You know what I mean? Like something that makes it, I don't know.
Well, it was very, very difficult, the divorce process because it took 7
years and I tried to make things as normal for the kids as I could so I
would drive them, you know, to school 40 miles away from home at that time
, John was potty training, so he'd be in the car. I've gotta go. I've
gotta go so I'd be pulling over and letting him tinkle outside the car. Um
, the hard part for me was the divorce took so long and I had no family
there, no help. It was um. Seriously
Insanity and Mike tried to make it even though he wanted all those
children, he tried to make it as hard as he possibly could and he would
fight for visitation but then not take any of it or take the kids and then
bring them back, you know, two hours later whether there was someone there
or not and um so I really felt like gosh, the sole responsibility for this
family is on me. When I said it was difficult, but, uh, but it was worth
it. I meant the having of the kids though. Did you, I mean, because you're
in this tumultuous, challenging at least, difficult. At least with
marriage, um, you know, but you obviously must have had a very strong love
for Mike to, you know, keep having children with him and, or at least some
sort of um Um, uh, optimism. About the marriage. I had a very strong love
for Mike. I truly was very deeply in love with him. I think Mike was not
in love with himself and um. So I kept trying to give him things that
would then make him happy if he wanted another baby, then he'll be happy
if we built a big house, maybe then he'll be happy, but people who aren't
happy with themselves are just not going to be happy no matter what you
give them. But I was very thrilled to have the children and um it's even
in my later years in life, although I'm only 62 um having them as best
friends is. Truly awesome.
I think that's a good ending statement, yeah, that's good. Thank you, mom.