All my kids were planned. I wanted a baby. Apparently my husband had been
trying to get me pregnant for months, but I am so powerful that that won't
happen unless I choose it to happen. I've made my period come back. I took
Chase tree. I took royal jelly, which is what they give to the bees and
the queen bee to make her be able to have as many children as she has and
to be healthy, and I wanted this baby until I got pregnant. I have I have
preterm labor with every single baby. I started being put on bed rest and
giving tinctures like cramped Bark and black haw and started at 27 weeks,
and she was still born at 35 weeks. So I would say I was in labor probably
longer than most women. I tend to go on full moons. That night was the
night of the full moon, and that would be April. 28 2013
and I was at my mom's. Then when I saw the the super moon on my way home
and I thought, oh boy, get ready cause it could happen tonight. I have
full moon babies. I need the universe and they have a really big pool on
my body, seeing as we're made up of mostly water and I'm very much in tune
with my sister moon. I had changed 3 weeks earlier to have a home birth
and thank God because I wasn't ready to have another hospital experience.
I was ready for a home birth. I called my midwife at 4 a.m. and I said, I
think I just peed all over the floor. I don't know what happened. Can you
just come check me out? I feel fine. And then I stood up from cleaning and
it happened again and I thought, OK, maybe this isn't pee because it was
so different from my other births. Little did I know I was going to have
her in less than 40 minutes. As soon as I got off the phone with her, I
went into labor like full on, this is really happening. And within minutes
she was already engaged and I was laying on my bed on my left side,
crossing my ankles thinking. I can't have this baby without my midwife
because I wasn't ready for an unassisted birth, although this entire
pregnancy, my husband had me doing research on unassisted births. because
he thought we could do it ourselves. He thought, this is your 3rd baby,
you know, like you can totally do this. Don't, you know, don't think that
you can't. And we had been watching all these videos on unassisted births
, and there's this one in the Amazon. This lady gives birth in a river by
herself. I may want unmedicated, unmedical, totally, you know, hippie. Let
me do this with all my girlfriends and my family and my babies, but I'm
not going to do it out in the Amazon. I had Jeffrey go down and get me
like a 1/4 cup of red wine and put my current bark in there and I'm like,
Well, let's try to stop these. They just got stronger and and to me like
contractions, they feel like your worst period. You've had my 2 year old
at the time, Faith had gotten up and typically comes to bed at some wee
hours in the morning and so she was in bed with me and I couldn't handle
her touching me anymore because it was it was so intense. Eventually I'm
like just give me a towel on the floor because this baby is coming.
My husband is like behind me with his hands under me. My 2 year old is in
front of me, you know, rubbing my shoulders cause she can see how upset
mommy is, and I'm telling Jeffrey like the baby's head is right here. I
felt her head and it was like being connected to every other mother
birthing. The universe, I could just feel myself opening and connecting
and feeling her, and it was so. Just real, just so real. I read a lot of
I'm MMA. Gaskin before I had her and so I really was visualizing these
beautiful waves instead of thinking, oh, here's another contraction, you
know, I just breathe and go inward and relax to the point where there's
nothing tense throughout my body. I'm completely relaxed and open and. And
then she just, she just came right out and he caught her and handed her to
me and here's little Faith standing in front of me and as soon as as soon
as this baby came into her view, she was just so delighted. The midwife
showed up 10 minutes later and my mom showed up, um, right about the same
time and everybody had missed it. I mean we did this. What felt like alone
, you know, I wasn't thinking about them anyways because I wasn't, I
couldn't keep her in. She was engaged within minutes of me getting off the
phone with my midwife and I didn't call her back because I didn't, I
couldn't concentrate on calling her back. I had to focus, you know,
because it's the most real moments of your life to feel all of that.
You know, it is the most present you will ever be ever.