WEBVTT 00:00:00.720 --> 00:00:04.766 All my kids were planned. I wanted a baby. Apparently my husband had been 00:00:04.799 --> 00:00:09.406 trying to get me pregnant for months, but I am so powerful that that won't 00:00:09.439 --> 00:00:14.847 happen unless I choose it to happen. I've made my period come back. I took 00:00:14.880 --> 00:00:20.806 Chase tree. I took royal jelly, which is what they give to the bees and 00:00:20.839 --> 00:00:25.087 the queen bee to make her be able to have as many children as she has and 00:00:25.120 --> 00:00:31.996 to be healthy, and I wanted this baby until I got pregnant. I have I have 00:00:32.029 --> 00:00:38.046 preterm labor with every single baby. I started being put on bed rest and 00:00:38.079 --> 00:00:43.635 giving tinctures like cramped Bark and black haw and started at 27 weeks, 00:00:43.668 --> 00:00:50.786 and she was still born at 35 weeks. So I would say I was in labor probably 00:00:50.819 --> 00:00:57.006 longer than most women. I tend to go on full moons. That night was the 00:00:57.039 --> 00:01:04.736 night of the full moon, and that would be April. 28 2013 00:01:04.769 --> 00:01:10.076 and I was at my mom's. Then when I saw the the super moon on my way home 00:01:10.109 --> 00:01:15.105 and I thought, oh boy, get ready cause it could happen tonight. I have 00:01:15.138 --> 00:01:20.147 full moon babies. I need the universe and they have a really big pool on 00:01:20.180 --> 00:01:25.186 my body, seeing as we're made up of mostly water and I'm very much in tune 00:01:25.219 --> 00:01:32.385 with my sister moon. I had changed 3 weeks earlier to have a home birth 00:01:32.418 --> 00:01:36.227 and thank God because I wasn't ready to have another hospital experience. 00:01:36.260 --> 00:01:41.986 I was ready for a home birth. I called my midwife at 4 a.m. and I said, I 00:01:42.019 --> 00:01:46.587 think I just peed all over the floor. I don't know what happened. Can you 00:01:46.620 --> 00:01:52.576 just come check me out? I feel fine. And then I stood up from cleaning and 00:01:52.609 --> 00:01:56.337 it happened again and I thought, OK, maybe this isn't pee because it was 00:01:56.370 --> 00:02:00.525 so different from my other births. Little did I know I was going to have 00:02:00.558 --> 00:02:04.576 her in less than 40 minutes. As soon as I got off the phone with her, I 00:02:04.609 --> 00:02:09.616 went into labor like full on, this is really happening. And within minutes 00:02:09.649 --> 00:02:15.536 she was already engaged and I was laying on my bed on my left side, 00:02:15.569 --> 00:02:20.531 crossing my ankles thinking. I can't have this baby without my midwife 00:02:20.564 --> 00:02:23.761 because I wasn't ready for an unassisted birth, although this entire 00:02:23.794 --> 00:02:28.850 pregnancy, my husband had me doing research on unassisted births. because 00:02:28.883 --> 00:02:32.842 he thought we could do it ourselves. He thought, this is your 3rd baby, 00:02:32.875 --> 00:02:36.862 you know, like you can totally do this. Don't, you know, don't think that 00:02:36.895 --> 00:02:40.082 you can't. And we had been watching all these videos on unassisted births 00:02:40.115 --> 00:02:44.600 , and there's this one in the Amazon. This lady gives birth in a river by 00:02:44.633 --> 00:02:51.946 herself. I may want unmedicated, unmedical, totally, you know, hippie. Let 00:02:51.979 --> 00:02:56.225 me do this with all my girlfriends and my family and my babies, but I'm 00:02:56.258 --> 00:02:59.866 not going to do it out in the Amazon. I had Jeffrey go down and get me 00:02:59.899 --> 00:03:03.786 like a 1/4 cup of red wine and put my current bark in there and I'm like, 00:03:03.819 --> 00:03:10.106 Well, let's try to stop these. They just got stronger and and to me like 00:03:10.139 --> 00:03:17.316 contractions, they feel like your worst period. You've had my 2 year old 00:03:17.349 --> 00:03:22.237 at the time, Faith had gotten up and typically comes to bed at some wee 00:03:22.270 --> 00:03:25.677 hours in the morning and so she was in bed with me and I couldn't handle 00:03:25.710 --> 00:03:30.475 her touching me anymore because it was it was so intense. Eventually I'm 00:03:30.508 --> 00:03:35.686 like just give me a towel on the floor because this baby is coming. 00:03:35.719 --> 00:03:40.156 My husband is like behind me with his hands under me. My 2 year old is in 00:03:40.189 --> 00:03:44.085 front of me, you know, rubbing my shoulders cause she can see how upset 00:03:44.118 --> 00:03:48.767 mommy is, and I'm telling Jeffrey like the baby's head is right here. I 00:03:48.800 --> 00:03:54.245 felt her head and it was like being connected to every other mother 00:03:54.278 --> 00:04:01.936 birthing. The universe, I could just feel myself opening and connecting 00:04:01.969 --> 00:04:09.969 and feeling her, and it was so. Just real, just so real. I read a lot of 00:04:10.199 --> 00:04:16.026 I'm MMA. Gaskin before I had her and so I really was visualizing these 00:04:16.059 --> 00:04:20.825 beautiful waves instead of thinking, oh, here's another contraction, you 00:04:20.858 --> 00:04:28.067 know, I just breathe and go inward and relax to the point where there's 00:04:28.100 --> 00:04:34.137 nothing tense throughout my body. I'm completely relaxed and open and. And 00:04:34.170 --> 00:04:37.916 then she just, she just came right out and he caught her and handed her to 00:04:37.949 --> 00:04:42.096 me and here's little Faith standing in front of me and as soon as as soon 00:04:42.129 --> 00:04:47.096 as this baby came into her view, she was just so delighted. The midwife 00:04:47.129 --> 00:04:53.096 showed up 10 minutes later and my mom showed up, um, right about the same 00:04:53.129 --> 00:04:59.257 time and everybody had missed it. I mean we did this. What felt like alone 00:04:59.290 --> 00:05:03.536 , you know, I wasn't thinking about them anyways because I wasn't, I 00:05:03.569 --> 00:05:08.055 couldn't keep her in. She was engaged within minutes of me getting off the 00:05:08.088 --> 00:05:11.257 phone with my midwife and I didn't call her back because I didn't, I 00:05:11.290 --> 00:05:15.137 couldn't concentrate on calling her back. I had to focus, you know, 00:05:15.170 --> 00:05:23.127 because it's the most real moments of your life to feel all of that. 00:05:23.160 --> 00:05:28.798 You know, it is the most present you will ever be ever.