You.
Are they all gone?
Is it all right to talk? Now,
I've been still for so long all day long. I didn't blink, an eye, didn't
scratch your wiggle once.
Is anybody there?
I had to be very still. When I had this picture painted my new dress
itched but I didn't scratch except once I couldn't help it. He didn't get
mad at me.
I think he really did, but he couldn't show it.
I'm the princess. He's the painter. That's what he said the other way
around. I'm his favorite subject. He told me the Infante Margherita in
Blue. The Infanta Margarita in salmon pink. The Infante Margherita with
burgundy chair with vase of flowers. One flower spilled out
one. The smile
can't remember.
Could have been prologue to a tear. Could have to loom so large against
the natural world. I, a common woman, albeit noted for my beauty, my head
, my neck, my shoulders, obliterating mountains, rivers, streams could
have made me want to cry. And so I smiled instead,
I'm glad they can't see my face.
It's my favorite picture of all the ones he painted. It wouldn't be if
they could see my face.
There's a lot of lie to paint in pictures. He didn't make any bones about
that. He took some things out, added others. Like I could never get so far
from the house crawling.
I'll never
Yeah.
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what good would it
for the
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to a smile
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to th
OK.
Bye.
You can close your eyes now and begin breathing deeply and slowly before
you let go completely and go into a deep hypnotic state. Just let yourself
listen carefully to everything I say to you. The tr process is going to
happen automatically. So you don't need to think about that one and you
will need no conscious control over what happens. There is nothing
important for your conscious mind to do. There is nothing really important
except the activities of your subconscious mind and that can be just as
automatic as dreaming.
Why? And you know how easily you can forget your dreams when you awaken.
Mhm.
Mhm. Right.
Yeah.
Yes.
Yeah.
One.
We, we, we have to keep it. We, we, we, we wake up,
we, we, we we'll wait up,
wake up.
I only have five minutes. Oh, I wish I could have slept last night. All
right. I know I can do this. I just need to stay calm and breathe, just
breathe.
If only I could get my extension as high as hers. I'm so glad I have on my
lucky necklace. My teacher gave me. She believes in me. I should too. All
right. I know I can do this. I just need to stay calm and breathe, just
breathe. I have to stretch out but I can't, I can't concentrate.
There are so many dancers in here. I'm nervous. She'll get in. Look at her.
I'm so glad I got my lucky number 13. Number. I need a number. Where am I
gonna get a number? I only have five minutes.
Damn, this le guitar is too tight. I knew I should have bought a new one.
What am I wearing? Why did I wear this? It's so tight. It's so all I can
do is my best. I just have to do it. Ok. Calm
down. Breathe.
You need to calm down. Why can't you just calm down? Just calm down. It's
not that big of a deal. Minutes? Oh my gosh. Five man, I'm sorry.
Ok. Just have to breathe the first. Get too. That's what I was gonna do.
How are you gonna do?
Why can't you just calm down? Just calm down? It's not that baby.
Yeah.
No.
Right.