WEBVTT 00:04:31.988 --> 00:04:33.988 You. 00:08:00.720 --> 00:08:06.406 Are they all gone? 00:08:06.439 --> 00:08:10.825 Is it all right to talk? Now, 00:08:10.858 --> 00:08:18.745 I've been still for so long all day long. I didn't blink, an eye, didn't 00:08:18.778 --> 00:08:22.856 scratch your wiggle once. 00:08:22.889 --> 00:08:28.736 Is anybody there? 00:08:28.769 --> 00:08:34.346 I had to be very still. When I had this picture painted my new dress 00:08:34.379 --> 00:08:42.275 itched but I didn't scratch except once I couldn't help it. He didn't get 00:08:42.308 --> 00:08:45.076 mad at me. 00:08:45.109 --> 00:08:51.226 I think he really did, but he couldn't show it. 00:08:51.259 --> 00:08:58.417 I'm the princess. He's the painter. That's what he said the other way 00:08:58.450 --> 00:09:06.450 around. I'm his favorite subject. He told me the Infante Margherita in 00:09:07.259 --> 00:09:12.885 Blue. The Infanta Margarita in salmon pink. The Infante Margherita with 00:09:12.918 --> 00:09:20.918 burgundy chair with vase of flowers. One flower spilled out 00:09:41.599 --> 00:09:45.706 one. The smile 00:09:45.739 --> 00:09:48.486 can't remember. 00:09:48.519 --> 00:09:56.336 Could have been prologue to a tear. Could have to loom so large against 00:09:56.369 --> 00:10:02.596 the natural world. I, a common woman, albeit noted for my beauty, my head 00:10:02.629 --> 00:10:09.917 , my neck, my shoulders, obliterating mountains, rivers, streams could 00:10:09.950 --> 00:10:17.950 have made me want to cry. And so I smiled instead, 00:10:41.090 --> 00:10:46.525 I'm glad they can't see my face. 00:10:46.558 --> 00:10:52.297 It's my favorite picture of all the ones he painted. It wouldn't be if 00:10:52.330 --> 00:10:55.606 they could see my face. 00:10:55.639 --> 00:11:01.476 There's a lot of lie to paint in pictures. He didn't make any bones about 00:11:01.509 --> 00:11:08.037 that. He took some things out, added others. Like I could never get so far 00:11:08.070 --> 00:11:16.070 from the house crawling. 00:13:21.269 --> 00:13:24.467 I'll never 00:13:24.500 --> 00:13:26.486 Yeah. 00:13:26.519 --> 00:13:31.496 T I smiled 00:13:31.529 --> 00:13:33.946 um 00:13:33.979 --> 00:13:36.476 Fucking, 00:13:36.509 --> 00:13:42.505 what good would it 00:13:42.538 --> 00:13:47.005 for the 00:13:47.038 --> 00:13:49.417 and 00:13:49.450 --> 00:13:55.836 yes 00:13:55.869 --> 00:14:03.869 to a smile 00:15:01.538 --> 00:15:06.246 or a 00:15:06.279 --> 00:15:14.279 uh 00:15:15.229 --> 00:15:23.229 to th 00:15:56.019 --> 00:16:04.019 OK. 00:18:35.880 --> 00:18:43.880 Bye. 00:22:12.588 --> 00:22:19.295 You can close your eyes now and begin breathing deeply and slowly before 00:22:19.328 --> 00:22:24.946 you let go completely and go into a deep hypnotic state. Just let yourself 00:22:24.979 --> 00:22:29.967 listen carefully to everything I say to you. The tr process is going to 00:22:30.000 --> 00:22:34.575 happen automatically. So you don't need to think about that one and you 00:22:34.608 --> 00:22:39.226 will need no conscious control over what happens. There is nothing 00:22:39.259 --> 00:22:44.746 important for your conscious mind to do. There is nothing really important 00:22:44.779 --> 00:22:49.676 except the activities of your subconscious mind and that can be just as 00:22:49.709 --> 00:22:53.877 automatic as dreaming. 00:22:53.910 --> 00:23:01.910 Why? And you know how easily you can forget your dreams when you awaken. 00:23:27.289 --> 00:23:30.637 Mhm. 00:23:30.670 --> 00:23:38.670 Mhm. Right. 00:24:54.338 --> 00:25:02.338 Yeah. 00:26:27.930 --> 00:26:35.930 Yes. 00:28:00.019 --> 00:28:08.019 Yeah. 00:30:10.670 --> 00:30:18.670 One. 00:32:03.779 --> 00:32:09.656 We, we, we have to keep it. We, we, we, we wake up, 00:32:09.689 --> 00:32:13.176 we, we, we we'll wait up, 00:32:13.209 --> 00:32:21.209 wake up. 00:33:08.420 --> 00:33:15.617 I only have five minutes. Oh, I wish I could have slept last night. All 00:33:15.650 --> 00:33:21.986 right. I know I can do this. I just need to stay calm and breathe, just 00:33:22.019 --> 00:33:29.226 breathe. 00:33:29.259 --> 00:33:32.967 If only I could get my extension as high as hers. I'm so glad I have on my 00:33:33.000 --> 00:33:37.637 lucky necklace. My teacher gave me. She believes in me. I should too. All 00:33:37.670 --> 00:33:43.996 right. I know I can do this. I just need to stay calm and breathe, just 00:33:44.029 --> 00:33:49.416 breathe. I have to stretch out but I can't, I can't concentrate. 00:33:49.449 --> 00:33:55.887 There are so many dancers in here. I'm nervous. She'll get in. Look at her. 00:33:55.920 --> 00:34:01.976 I'm so glad I got my lucky number 13. Number. I need a number. Where am I 00:34:02.009 --> 00:34:07.977 gonna get a number? I only have five minutes. 00:34:08.010 --> 00:34:13.256 Damn, this le guitar is too tight. I knew I should have bought a new one. 00:34:13.289 --> 00:34:19.155 What am I wearing? Why did I wear this? It's so tight. It's so all I can 00:34:19.188 --> 00:34:27.188 do is my best. I just have to do it. Ok. Calm 00:34:27.929 --> 00:34:31.206 down. Breathe. 00:34:31.239 --> 00:34:36.336 You need to calm down. Why can't you just calm down? Just calm down. It's 00:34:36.369 --> 00:34:44.369 not that big of a deal. Minutes? Oh my gosh. Five man, I'm sorry. 00:34:49.369 --> 00:34:57.369 Ok. Just have to breathe the first. Get too. That's what I was gonna do. 00:34:58.958 --> 00:35:03.385 How are you gonna do? 00:35:03.418 --> 00:35:11.418 Why can't you just calm down? Just calm down? It's not that baby. 00:41:31.958 --> 00:41:39.958 Yeah. 00:51:42.039 --> 00:51:50.039 No. 00:59:06.800 --> 00:59:08.800 Right.